There is so much about June that I love; it’s right in the middle of spring and summer…it’s usually not too hot, there’s still a coolness in the air, flowers are still blooming, trees are still green, along with the grass. The air still has a scent of sweetness. The sky is blue with fluffy clouds.

The best part, it’s the month I was born. My birthstone is Alexandrite (no it’s not Pearl or Amethyst) which is a pretty purple gem. The flower is Rose (very fitting since my maiden name is Rose).

As I get older I have come to appreciate my birth month more and more. I’ve realized that having/celebrating a birthday is not bad…what’s bad is to pretend I don’t have one or it’s not important. So a few years ago I started celebrating on my own. Doing stuff that’s fun or what I like on my birthday. I love when others join in, that’s what makes it a party.  There have been several years that I wouldn’t take the day off from work…I didn’t find it important, until recently, I had a little ah, ha moment…God chose this month for me to be born in for a reason..He created me, I am important…why not enjoy it. It’s one day that is about me.

The last few years have been years of not really loving life, my husband was taken (very abruptly), I was not real happy with the Lord, my situation just sucked. My kids really tried to step in and help me know how special I was; I think their goal was for me to appreciate life, and notice how much I meant to them. Last year, 2016, was the year I finally woke up and started to be okay with living, being happy, having fun, and it was okay to enjoy life. My answer was go to the place that causes me to be happy, yep, Disneyland. For my 55th birthday I chose to go to the happiest place on earth with a dear friend and start enjoying life again.

As I say goodbye to 55; walk into 56 I’m ready to go. I have learned it’s okay to be happy, celebrate life as I know it on earth. While I was in Phoenix last weekend, I took some time to journal…there was a lot going on in my head that I needed to get out…here’s what I wrote….It’s okay to not go back anymore..it it finished!!! My past is my past now it’s time to walk into my new future (take a big breath, a sigh of relief, take in new air). I felt such a sense of relief, excitement, and scared all at the same time. Yet, I know it’s time….I can now embrace what the Lord has set before me and I’m going to be okay. He has my new future all figured out….my job is to trust Him….THE BEST IS YET TO COME!!!