I woke up this morning with anxiety over eggs, can I get eggs, I’m running low. So I went to a grocery website place my order, for a few days out. Now I haven’t been to any store for about a week (bought cat food) and today I decided it was time to fill my pantry. Fast forward a few hours…I’m sitting at my table eating…yep you guested it and nice warm boiled egg…something inside me snapped. I got up and started washing my dishes when I started to just cry….why? I asked myself. I started to think about the people, laying in a hospital all they want to do is breath, without help, on their own. All they want to do is take a breath of fresh air, this is where I prayed for so many, who would love to be able to see and visit with their loved ones…and can’t. They would love to sit in the confines of their home…and breath. Oh my…how selfish I have been. Then my thoughts went to the doctors and nurses who would love to be in the confines of their homes with their families but they are at the hospital watching, waiting….for life or death. Father forgive me for my own selfishness. My lack of perspective, heart, compassion. I grieved and prayed for them as I cleaned my kitchen.

I have a little sign sitting on my gate outside my lovely home, God has graciously provided for me. On that sign I put “Be Your Best”….Best what_________ fill in the blank. I don’t feel my best today. I feel selfish, over blessed, somewhat greedy, ungrateful but you know what…. I’m breathing!!

I may not be able to “do” much…however, I can pray. I can seek Him and his righteousness (the Lord knows I need it). I can’t fix this world but I know who can….nope it’s not the government. It’s God

Lord, forgive me of my selfishness, ungratefulness, greed, lack of compassion, unseeing eyes, closed heart and mind. Fill me with your eyes to see, your heart of compassion, a mind to understand.